I’m scared, but I am doing it anyway……..

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I had been thinking about writing a blog for couple of years now, I had been telling myself the story (lie) that I needed to set up the website first, I had to design it “properly”, and that I had to decide whether it would be ‘weekly’, or ‘monthly’ or ‘daily’, or leaving it vague so that I could wriggle out of it and not show up as promised………..  It was a hell of a lot of crappy self talk.

 

From “monthly” to “weekly” to “daily”: the fear volume increases in that order.

 

Then I did set up things but kept the site on hold without launching it………

 

Why? Because I was scared. I was scared that it would not be perfect. That the world would laugh at my crappy writing.

 

But guess what, baby. I did it anyway. I announced that I would show up every day. And guess what, it’s not that scary once I pressed the “I am doing it anyway” button.

 

I decided all good blogs started as not so good, or even crappy blogs.

 

And I decided to do the scariest one: “DAILY”

 

Then I have been telling myself that I would make a public video. Same stories, on and on. But guess what, I just made one and I am going to offer it to the world. It’s not perfect and everyone might say it’s crap. But I am putting it out anyway.

 

I learnt that when I “do it anyway”, the fear takes a back seat.

 

Pressing the “do it anyway” button has seriously made what was “scary” look  friendly. Growth friendly. All growth needs stretching and I have realised that if it’s not scary enough, there is probably not much growth in it.